I have never noticed that not everybody in the world is entirely comfortable saying the words I love you. It has never occurred to me that you wouldn’t regularly say it to people you love.
I grew up with a mum who was ill and in her own misguided way she was trying to prepare me for the day when she would no longer be around, she would frequently tell me that she could drop dead at any minute because of the condition that she had. While this fact is one of the contributing reasons that I suffer anxiety attacks (the constant fear that something awful is just about to happen) it also sparked one of the things that I do that I’m happy that I do. I never end a conversation with someone that I love without telling them that I love them, I will never visit with those same people and on the way out not say I love you. My logic has always been (since that’s the way my brain had been conditioned) that you ever know what’s going to happen and as morbid as it sounds every time you part ways with some one that could be the last time you have ever seen them.
A work friend had witnessed this once where I was yelling after my dad that I loved him to make sure he could hear me and he did the same back. They were confused and wanted to know why I did that and after I told them they looked thoughtful, I guess they had never thought of it that way.
When I tell my friends and family that I love them I don’t do it out of habit or because I think they don’t know because honestly if my last words to someone where anything other than I love you I would still be happy because they all know exactly what I think about the amazing human beings that they are.
I say it because it’s also a reminder to me to leave things on a good note and I remember that phrase never go to bed angry and it’s the same sentiment as that. Even if your incredibly mad at the person I will still say I love you, I’m really mad at what you did but I still love you.
Also everyone likes to hear that they are loved right?
I think what I’d like people to take away from this is the typical message of tell the people you love how you feel about them, write them a text or an email, yell it at them if it makes you uncomfortable just make sure you say the words.
My mum died 4 years ago the last thing she read before she went to bed the night before she died was a text from me telling her how much I loved her and my dad. I have to say that brings me a great amount of comfort knowing my mum went to bed that night with a smile on her face.
Have I told you lately that I love you? Of course it’s my favourite thing to tell you.